random thoughts

The room was a blur of light and dark. My ears were flooded with upbeat tempos begging my body to move to it. My breath was short and quick and my mind was slowed. My body moved before I could register it. We were spinning in the blur of light with heavy tension between us. Our eyes spoke what out minds screamed. Each time I remember this it grow less and less like moment was. But the fondest part is the questioning of my actions. I knew not what to do next.

A shot to the chest

I am a fool. Why am I so blind? I keep putting myself in this position and I feel that I'll never learn. My need for love and attention is strong and deep inside of me. And as much as I try to love...I just keep hurting people. He almost died because of me...ME. What am I? I am nothing special in the least. Hopefully now he can be happy.