How can this be life?

These four cream colored walls bare down on me. My silent scream is so loud for no one can hear it. The noises of this place makes put images that I hate to play. Always spinning hoping I don't slip into insanity. Questioning my health so easily I don't answer for fear of what I'll find. Darkness finds its way into my light. There is no way to fight it now. Am I worth the confusion I'm causing you? Sleep, oh sweet slumber you thought I slipped into. I long for it yet it does not come. The noises become so loud when your in solitude. Don't let a sound slip from your scared little lips. They might find you. Dragging you deeper into this darkness called my mind. Do you hear that beating at my window? My curiosity will not win this time. Hush now don't make a sound. It's the calm before the storm. Why can't I just sleep? Whats wrong with me? I have no idea...so I won't drag you any deeper but you wish to continue. Help me escape my mind. I need to be with you and all this madness....darkness disappears. Your the pleasant numbing of this depression. Hold me in your arms and I will be saved. I will be happy.

You make me so happy! We should be happy!

We may fight alot that is true. But I'm not tired and I'm not ready to give up on you! You make me so happy when I'm sad. Your my angel. It's so true. I know your shaking your head no but baby you held me up when I felt like giving up. You saved my life. I don't think you realise this. I don't want anyone else Aaron! I want you and only you! Your laugh makes me smile even over the phone. I love how I bring out the playful side in you. I love the way your eyes sparkle when you look at me! I love the way your watch is a bit too big on your wrist. I LOVE YOU AND EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU! And the cure for my loneliness is simply hearing your lovely voice! No other man can even compete against you for my love! Your the best and absolutely perfect in my eyes!

Babe I love you!

Say my name. I just want to hear you speak my name. It makes me smile and my heart beat fast. Am I crazy for letting you have my heart completely? My parents sure think so. You’re the only one who can make me smile when I’m depressed. How can I not love someone who is so perfect in my eyes for me. I might be blinded by love but I’d rather be blind with you then seeing clearly with anyone else. I love the sparkle in your eyes when your happy. I hate see in those salty burning droplets fall across your soft face. It breaks my heart to see you hurt that much. I would give anything to never see that sadness in your eyes again. It’s like when I look in those blue spheres I can see the depths of your tortured soul. I hope this doesn’t turn into another of my stupid sappy heartbreaks. Though I would never kill myself trusting people with my emotions would be even harder. I might be depressed sometimes but I try to be happy for you. The way my body tingles when our hands touch is unlike any other. It’s like electricity flows from your hand to mine through my body and back to you. Do you feel it too? Do you get butterfly to every time you see me? You’ll never know how much you have made me stronger. You saved me in so many ways that night. You don’t even know how grateful I am!